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Tuesday, 09 February 2010

Just Pretending.

When you talk to me about Chinese New Year,
my face turns :) :) :)
When I think of Ah Bear,
my face turns =] =] =]
When you said it will remain as a dream,
my face turns :( :( :(
When you said it MIGHT turn into reality,
my face turns =[ =[ =[

Because I know it's a lie.
Because I know it will still remain as a dream.

Why do you need a competitor to appreciate someone?
I don't understand.

And and, I am so addicted to the song Mr. Kamal played yesterday:
Roberta Flack's Only Heaven Can Wait.
Love it like nobody's business.

We know that its all over, still we haven't said goodbye,
Pretending life is wonderful, pretending you and I.

Why do we stay together, we cant wait forever,
Heavens too late, only heaven can wait.
Waiting for love wont make it happen,
Crying for love don't mean you care
Only when love has ended, can a heart be mended.
Never too late, only heaven can wait.

In horoscopes, in true romance and Playboy magazine,
We lie in bed at night and search the pages for our dreams

Talking
So we've been together too long, you and I.
There were the children, shared interests, creative interests, business interests, our In-laws,
and then just plain old bad habit.
Now things have changed. You've changed, Ive changed and its time to move on.
So, my sweet, you kept doubting that I would understand what you meant when you said you needed your space.
Well, I do understand. I have some more reasons another purpose to my life and I'm ready to take my own space we both deserve it something real.

Why do we stay together, we cant wait forever,
Heavens too late, only heaven can wait.

The lyrics are nice, right?
♥♥♥

Ugh, long way to go before CNY break.
So many things to do but why do I seem to be super free every night?

Gosh, this is so cute!
How come I've never seen it anywhere before?
Time to oi oi!~
:D

-faith and freedom comes together-

Thursday, 28 January 2010

Fireflies Love.

It's been a while again, since I last posted up something that I wrote by myself instead of those lyrics written by the others. There isn't much happening these days actually. Last weekend was an awesome weekend as in I was only home to sleep, and that's it. Friday night, had a date with my dear and Linda to i-City, but we went to meet Ying Fang for dinner before going there. As usual, we had a crapping session during dinner at Nando's and the waiters and waitresses were like camwhoring all the time instead of doing their job. Damn sweat, kan? Skip skip skip. Play play with camera in i-City and 'someone' starts to get emofied because of that. :P

So, the next day I thought I want to be goodie goodie and study for Chemistry quiz. But ended up being out the whole day to buy stuff for my house renovation. Uh, but it feels good to be a consultant for this kind of thing. A feeling like, "Wow, I'm appreciated for my artistic sense," even if it's not. We went to Vonza Gallery to get the furniture and I was stealing ideas from their design, as in those hand-made flowers. I'm going to make some for Chinese New Year, as requested by the Mummy and the Sister. I just love doing these kind of things. :)

Okay, so one day gone and well, Sunday is the same too. Went for a movie, Woo Hoo, had dinner and I'm back to hostel. Damn awesome, right? Gawd. If every weekend is like this, I'm so dead for my studies this semester.

I need to be good. I have to. It's a must.

Random random, I'm the new SK-II ambassador in INTEC. xD
Random random, JPA finally banked in money today!
Random random, I have no class at all today and that's why I'm blogging.
Random random, I'm so lazy to go out.
Random random, many people owe me many things.
Random random, Home Sweet Home tomorrow! =]

Chinese New Year is approaching.
Wheeeee~~

-faith and freedom comes together-

Sunday, 17 January 2010

Let's pretend that I moved on.

You took your love away too fast,
Left no chance to say,
look back.

And now I know the truth,
it makes it easier.
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand.

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away

You threw it all away,
so blind.
Pushed me far from you in your life.
Now I know the tears
wont lead to loneliness.
Maybe when time goes by,
I'll understand.

Lets pretend that I moved on,
then I'll tell myself
that life goes on without you.
Open my eyes, look deep inside,
I run away, I run away, I run away.

Loving Britney all over again.
♥♥♥

-faith and freedom comes together-

Wednesday, 06 January 2010

Tick Tock, on the Clock~

I've not blogged about outing for quite some time because I'm always lazy to do that. But now, I've decided to blog about the outing yesterday at One U with my sampat dear and sampat Linda. I will tell you why I'm blogging about it at the end of the post. Because I do not want to go Sunway Pyramid again after going with the Intec sampat gang, we went 1U instead.

I wasn't fully awake even though we were in 1U already. Not that I've no mood, but I just don't have the mood YET when we reached not long. Linda went round and round for her white basic tee but she didn't get one in the end; some are too long, some are too loose and they made her look super skinny because she is. Macam lidi only.

Linda's favorite.

Then we had another mission after lunch.
We walked from floor to floor to search for something cute, really cute.
And it took us so much time to find it.
Ahem ahem.

And we freaking saw Paul Moss walked pass us yesterday.
Linda and I was like OMG OMG OMG.
He's so super extremely good-looking real life.
He looks even better in real life than in TV.
Awwww...

Went for Honeymoon Dessert.
We wanted a hidden place, so that's it.

Guai bear bear, studying in the library.
:)

Sampat Linda is trying to feed the bear bear.
Macam that bear can eat lo.
HAHAHA.

I want, she wants, we want.
But not ours.
>.<

Trying to act like a ghost behind Linda but looks like it has failed.

Tie tie ribbon.
See, I took good care of it before I passed it to the owner.

Okay, I'm blogging about this now because I'm super free.
Classes just started today but there's not much going on yet.
Except the part, hunting for books, 'The Color Purple' & 'of Mice and Men' for Literature class.
Anybody has these books?
LOL.

Spring 2010: Cell Biology. Chemistry. Technical Writing. Literature.

So, that's it.
Tick Tock, on the clock,
But the party don't stop~

-faith and freedom comes together-

Tuesday, 22 December 2009

Life's but a Large Coconut! =]

I'm back from Cherating! :D
I had fun there with my family as well as being lost in action for three days.
I like making people to miss me.
Wahahaha.

I actually stayed overnight at Kuantan town before going to Cherating because my Daddy need to rest and I thought of seeing how is Kuantan. I went to Berjaya Megamall first because it was opposite the hotel. I didn't know what to shop over there and what's suckier was the autopay machine at the parking area. We had to round and round until we found it in a hidden area; I thought it should be placed at the exit of the lift. But I was wondering how come Kuantan is way colder than Klang. I like the coldness over there even though it wasn't Cameron nor Genting Highlands.

Teluk Chempedak is a nice place too.
I love the monkeys there; I don't know why.
HAHAHAHA

As for Cherating, we stayed at the Legend Resort. Kept on raining but of course we had chance to go to the beach.

I went to the swimming pool while it's raining.
I played beach football while it was raining.
I went to the beach while it was raining.
I played swing while it was raining.
I love the rain!
♥

Dinner was great except that they left out my sister and brother's order. The manager ended up giving us free fruits and they were super sweet. Cherating's fruits are sweeter,is it?LOL. We went back kinda early because my sister is on call on the next day. Doctor oh doctor.

Plus, we missed our Baby Rex so much.
He came back hugging each of us for around 3 minutes.
Damn adorable, kan?

And Happy Winter Solstice, everyone!
Eat more tang yuan and get older, get mature!
=]

-faith and freedom comes together-

Wednesday, 02 December 2009

There will be no forever with no goodbyes.

Shopping is the best thing to do.
Sleeping is the second best thing to do.
These two ass S-activities filled up my life about 70%.
Enough said.

Okay, I've spent so much that I don't dare to look at the amount.
Plus, I'm not the one paying so, you know.
Money can buy happiness, seriously.
No one can denies that, including you.

My TOEFL is on 12th of December and I've not done any practice.
I kept reminding myself to do some practice but my brain just didn't want to.
Forcing brings no happiness, right?
So, better not to do but go shopping.
Ahem ahem.

As for the university applications, I'm not done with it as well.
Why? Because the essays are left in the waiting list among my appointments.
HAHAHAHA.

I should not be proud of myself about this but I just can't help it.
I try to grieve over my laziness.
And also do something about it.
I will try.

Oh oh, I've forgotten to share about my insurance thingy.
I took the insurance exam because my brother asked me to.
I read for less than a day and sat for the exam.
I was worried sick that I might fail and waste my brother's money.
But thank God, I passed!
I can sell insurance now but I'm not going to do that.
LOL.

And I hereby declare that I'm OVER IT.
I'd let it go and it's getting further, further and further;
I can barely remember those feelings anymore.
Proudness, for real to be proud of.

There will be no forever with no goodbyes.
Till then, take care!
♥

-faith and freedom comes together-

Sunday, 15 November 2009

Beautiful Rainbow.

I'm seriously proud of myself because i spent less than RM500 this holiday, so far. I'm also very proud of myself because I'm finally back to my healthy lifestyle of sleeping and waking up early as well as daily exercises. I'm also very very proud of myself because I clean the house everyday; Mummy's leg is seriously in pain and she deserves to do less house chores although she's still doing most of them. Say you're proud of me too, alright? =]

Singapore's plan has been canceled.
Cherating plan is still in progress.
Family trip is on.
Kawan-kawan trip is still in progress.

And I really hate people who call scholars nerd because of a hasty generalization:
SCHOLAR MUST BE A NERD.
SO, ALL OF THEM ARE NERDS.
Go jump to the sea, okay?
I hope critical thinking course could help you people.
But if it's too serious, still it's better for you to jump to the sea.
Dumb.

Ignore that part if you are not involved in it. I've been watching Queen of No Marriage everyday and I really love the story plus the actor. Good looking until I can't take my eyes off him. xD But I do learn a lot from that drama. There may be trillions of people all over the world but for two people to be together, it's fated and destined. That's why a relationship should be appreciated no matter what the ending might be. Nice.

Now, everyone's into the news that the world's gonna end in 2012.
And a conversation popped up.
Mummy says, "If the world's going to really end in 2012, what would you do?"
I say, "I'm going to do many many things which I haven't done and I will try my very best to make things work out."
Mummy replies, "I guess I'll just wait and die."
Sister says, "Of course lah. You did so many things already. We haven't even get married and have children yet."

We laughed and I thought about this. When we reach a different age, we have different viewpoint because our level of life keeps increasing and our experience level gains higher as well. Each challenge in life creates a different color of rainbow. If there's no challenge at all, imagine what color will your rainbow be? Maybe you won't even have a rainbow but a white light, photon? LOL.

That's why, I've decided to kick love aside and move on with my own life.
I wanna draw a beautiful rainbow.
Yay~
♥

Sometimes we wish for the better
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
As soon as we find out, we forget
Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl is gon' be a girl
She don't want to deal with all the drama in your world
So, I'm sorry for the stupid things
I wish I didn't do but I do.

-faith and freedom comes together-

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

Damn. Repetititions.

I'm back, humans!
I know my blog was so dead for quite some time but do not blame the owner of the blog because I, myself could not help it. LOL.

Anyway, I'm finally having a long long long break after many many many problems which many many many people didn't know, after many many many works to do, after many many many exams which I think I flunked them all, after many many many sleepless nights, after many many many many many many days without shopping, after many many many many many many emofying days, after many many many many many many karaoke-less days, and after many many many many many many many happenings.

And here I am, typing MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY.
=.=

I ♥ shopping.
I ♥ sleeping.
I ♥ spending.

I want to go sing sing sing.
I want to go sleep sleep sleep.
I want to go buy buy buy.
I want to go play play play.
I want to go date date date.
Blueks!

I don't know what the hell am I updating right here.
Next time, maybe? =]
Have a nice day!

-faith and freedom comes together-

Saturday, 10 October 2009

A part of me is always gonna love you, but I can't stay~

Still a little hope left in my brain
You always got me thinking we might strike a match relight the flame
We both know it's never gonna be the same
So for this love to end we can't stay friends
Cause we're always gonna feel this way

And it's so hard
Cause a part of me is always gonna love you, but I can't stay

I can't take it no more
It's getting too bad
Surrender all we're fighting for
And all we have
Cut the strings we left attached
So you can't pull me back

Time we stopped talking for a while
And turn these tears into smiles
Cause i can't see you without crying
We need a day break
So when I see your face
You know I won't be lying
And it's so hard
Cause a part of me is always gonna love you, but I can't stay
I can't take it no more
It's getting too bad
Surrender all we're fighting for
And all we have
Cause the strings we left attached
So you can't pull me back
If we give the time to heal this
We might work it out
But there's no way that we could fix this
With how we are right now

♥

-faith and freedom comes together-

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Hi, my name is depressed emo freak.
I love black, slitting my wrist, being a homosexual, the usual.
I don't eat, and I live inside my room.

One of my favorite poems is the following:
"I'm going to draw a picture, a picture with a twist; I'll draw it with a razorblade; I'll draw it on my wrist."

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May Yin.
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